1. In-balance
I’m trying to feel your thoughts
It’s never easy I know
But trying makes me feel reassured
That there is still hope
Hope for us being together
Hope for this doesn’t end right here
I know I shouldn’t
But it keeps me going on
Going through the day
Going through this endless line of downfall
Year after year
We grow further apart
We grow apart
I’m really trying
Trying to grieve, and to be relieved
Trying to start this all over
Ready to end this endless deceit
End this burden
Unveiling the inconvenient truth
Exposure is my destiny
The silence will lift my disguise
Prevents me to hide
Deserted by all density
You’ll dissolve into thin air,
Become what I fear
Hope for us being together
Hope for this doesn’t end right here
I know I shouldn’t
But it keeps me going on
Going through the day
Through this endless line of downfall
Year after year
We grow further apart
We grow apart
2. The Veil
As I turn away
From the many taunting faces
That caused my own decay
I take (a) stand and resist
Put my feet into the soil, tell myself I can exist
Standing straight
Taking my time, put my feelings on the side
Taking back what is mine
As I’ve done enough for others
The moment has come to take back my own life
Into the darkness, searching the pain
I’m hurting myself, it’s the same old refrain
Hiding myself till the harm is done
This only stops when I’ll be gone
Pale is the moon
And dark is the sky
Black is my heart
It’s the final goodbye
There is no more fence around the place where you grew old
The stairway to redemption, before my eyes unfolds
Ascend…
Descend…
Ascend!
Don’t give in to reason
Don’t give in to eternity
Your internal demons are searching for a way out of here
But don’t give in to reason
Don’t give in to eternity
– I’ll be gone –
The dead end lane guides me to the point
Where thoughts align and visions intertwine
3. Monologue
Matter is essential
Life is consequential
Man’s gods align central
In the weariness of his mind
Behold the perfect kind!
I am the dark, that whispers through the solid ground
I’m deep within, a silence turns in a rumbling sound
I am the lord that guides you to the end of light
Now let’s begin, I’ll show you the way inside
I’ll show you how you died
I am your darkest fear
(You’ve got) nowhere to go
There’s nothing more, nothing to do
I am the dark that holds your light
I am the spellbound, that keeps you cold at night
And I am the dark
That forever holds your light
Spellbound by
The blackness of the night
The night is bright
May your light forever shine
4. Illuminight
Absence of time
Every week lasts for years
A seed planted nowhere
Collision, obsession, fear
The voice of no reason
Your aura surrounds it all
Fragments of future
My incomplete soul.
Bear with me now
Ghost of the past
Let the yesteryear forever last
But the once leveling currents now flow in disharmony
A disease ridden cosmos of irreversibility
Change is due to be certain
Change is due to be real
Fusion becomes divided
The veil is set to reveal
Become what is essence
When your world will collapse
Turn your blood into ice
Make the towering anger snap
Because there is no reason to resist the higher call
Give in to the fear, take the step and just fall…
Icy rivers streaming through
The veins of you
Holes with deeply hidden dreams
That never surface, so it seems
Poisoned is my heart
Riddled with defeat
You are destined to lay here
I mourn for you somewhere in time
Scorched be this ground
I am forever incomplete
Clearing all thoughts
Now it’s time to leave this behind
Someday I’ll breach through this wall of silence again
Someday we’ll breach through your wall of silence again…
5. Exemption
I try not to feel
That redemption seems real
But I anxiously await
What it is that I contemplate
I have been dreaming of the white…
And the dream lingers on tonight
Tonight I saw the dark become the light
And all I felt was sudden relief
I have been dreaming of the white…
And the dream lingers on tonight
I have been dreaming of the white bright light
And the dream lingers on tonight
6. Isle of no-man…
Behold all of man end in everydayness
In order to measure up to perfection
Tick tock, tick tock
The clock goes on…
How about spontaneous combustion?
How about whatever makes your world go ‘round,
To find the way to your savior
Choice is truth or lie, virtue or sin
Depression or liberation
But not for you
Nonexistent is the road paved in front of you,
That lightened path towards upheaval
Just a shadow cast from the solitary tree
On the Isle of No-Man
Beloved be the light, but all ways lead towards the dark
I forgive you for going astray
Life is death-inhaling now and death seems life-defining somehow
So let’s just go home…
6. Eternity expires
Never thought to be here where I am now
Never thought ‘to be’, could end because of me
And it makes you wonder…
Doesn’t it make you wonder?
It makes me wonder…